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LULABEE

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all I want is a kiss goodnight, everynight
for the rest of my life...


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hardly any of this is mine, but the words are, unless otherwise quoted. please don't try to get to know me through this tumblr. just taking it in with a light heart & heavy eyelids.





January 30
pascal flamme

pascal flamme

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they named her june, she died in the spring.

they named her june, she died in the spring.

January 29
January 28
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FAIL.

FAIL.

January 27
you can’t keep this it’s leaving and soon it will be gone so you hold it inside you and let it kill you and forget but I remember all the times you hurt yourself for ephemeral things; things that only left their memory with the pain you felt after they had hurt you freeing themselves from your clutches…

you can’t keep this it’s leaving and soon it will be gone so you hold it inside you and let it kill you and forget but I remember all the times you hurt yourself for ephemeral things; things that only left their memory with the pain you felt after they had hurt you freeing themselves from your clutches…

(via punkest)

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1928 — Legendary American film actress, Louise Brooks (1906 – 1985), wearing a long pearl necklace against a black background. — Photo by Eugene Robert Richee © Sunset Boulevard

1928 — Legendary American film actress, Louise Brooks (1906 – 1985), wearing a long pearl necklace against a black background. — Photo by Eugene Robert Richee © Sunset Boulevard

(Source: thegirlisbad, via punkest)

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okstupid on asians

  • April Lulabee: it's on the side
  • April Lulabee: omg the internetttt
  • April Lulabee: someone from canada just lurked meee
  • Elliot: (wave)
  • Elliot: every time i get a lurk from someone miles away, i picture myself grabbing them by the collar and slamming them against a brick wall, "WHO ARE YOU. WHERE DID YOU GET THIS OKCUPID PROFILE"
  • Elliot: "D...DO YOU THINK IM CUTE"
  • April Lulabee: I get them all the time
  • April Lulabee: even from scandinavia
  • April Lulabee: and the netherlands
  • April Lulabee: and crazy places like that
  • April Lulabee: I never get asians tho
  • April Lulabee: asians don't want to look at other asians
  • April Lulabee: because that's all they get to see I suppose
  • April Lulabee: ol' chin's house has prolly got more underage pussy in it than a chinese dumpster
  • Elliot: i was going to make a vaguely racist joke
  • Elliot: but cool
  • Elliot: seems you got this covered
  • April Lulabee: ehhhh that one was pretty bad
  • Elliot: asians love my profile in contrast
  • Elliot: can't get enough of that shit
  • April Lulabee: tall, skinny, white man, with eyes the color of jade
  • April Lulabee: they put that in the search engine
  • April Lulabee: and get YOU
  • Elliot: rofl
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(via beautiful-but-mental)

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trance doll | pictureplane


here’s an awesome song the second guy I ever fucked made. it’s strange to think about sex and not feel a certain revulsion thinking about your mental list of people that never felt anything about you. not even once. not even a little. …There’s always that moment
with people, right?
You look back…
you can’t believe
how they just
don’t love you.
And how,
in the minute before that,
you didn’t know.
but I always knew
I just wanted to humbled
by being wrong
just once
instead I let my skin stay this soft and smooth
when it should hurt them when they touch it
it should cut their fingers and poison them
it should hurt them
as much as it will hurt me
and that question that burrows itself deep into my brain
like a tick
For a long time,
I didn’t know what to say.
And of course I didn’t want to say it.
When everything depends—has always
depended on acting like nothing is wrong.
why
when you knew
the whole time
you knew
and you could have stopped it
you should have stopped it.
especially if you were just going to regret it
such waste
I say this all to myself.

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January 26

yeeeeeah TROYEEEEE!